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Oh Gilliam late i ramble again we don't have wine this time go guys just some tea I usually drink tea before bed so not one that's not using my thing my button came fit into the fray so I'm more bummy than usual and hold on this is just the green tea is really good along anyway um got a really really positive response from the last late night rambles I did should I call it like late-night rambles Casey Chronicles Casey rambles what do we like that I mean late night rambles I feel like just blows the best but I don't have suggestions for what I should call this little series then let me know look so messy right now I'm zero makeup on and I just got out of night class also my nails look hit this is rambling remember I'm gonna ramble my nails I'm getting them done tomorrow I'm not usually one of those people that like get their nails done like consistently like usually I could have done one time I'm like all right take them off but there's this color that I can like picture on my hands that I just wanted like I have to do it so anybody else then tomorrow and do it can I afford that no but I'm gonna do it what are we talking about today where's my phone not that like I need of like you know you just got to know where your phone is at all times it's 10 33 he's not really that late like I'm gonna be up to like three for no reason and I'm so tired right now but um we'll call them my name rambles anyway also what should I need my plant comment down below names for my plant it looks like a girl like I'm thinking a girl named I when I was gonna go with Riley I really love the name Riley but she doesn't really look like a Riley anyway frizzy f look at these baby hair so so tonight we're sipping tea and talking about future stuff that's what I feel like talking about today of course an airplane is going by love living near an Air Force Base and so fun so much fun so I feel like talking about futuristic stuff and I feel like talking about photography these are actually a lot of you know a lot of you what a good number of you have been like curious as to what's up with me Don fee lately and if I still do it and like I'm pursuing it this baby is really annoying me like God I don't know where to start so photography photography is still very much in my life I've done over the summer and just recently up to like last week been doing a lot of reflecting when it comes to photography and I actually filmed a video twice about photography and like an update and then I just never I don't know watched both of them back and I just was like mmm does anyone care so I figured I just talk about when i talk about their kind of in this ramble touch my hair a lot i know i'm sorry so anyway with photography I feel like I've kind of come to a point this is like a point I thought I'd never really hit with photography where I realized that like it might not be something I want to pursue also mainly as a career i mean obviously if an opportunity came then like I'm all on board but I think I've kind of become realistic about being a photographer and not saying to shoot down my dream and that to give up my dream I'm not giving up on my dream it sounds like I am but I'm just having Plan B's and backups and options and keeping keeping as many doors open as possible I don't know I feel like I'm at a point now where I have no idea what I want to do first of all like I love photography I love YouTube I love video I love I love creating like period like I just love to create like if someone asked me what I want to be I'm just like a creator whatever that means I love even like for USA Today my internship we'll get into that later but I did like broadcasting kind of style videos with them where I was kind of like this like weekly web blog thing I mean kind of like you too but it was just like about topics it wasn't about necessarily what I want to talk about I mean I I chose most of those topics but it was like news events or like I don't know I became like a broadcast thing and it made me think about like maybe I want to be one like this side of the camera permanently and be like broadcast journalism or broadcast something I said broadcast a lot in the last 10 seconds I don't know I feel like I fit into a lot of different little buckets and I remember this one time I applied for this internship that I really wanted was basically like an ad agency on the advertising and public relations major he didn't know and so was that ad agency and I kind of wanted like a video helper person you know just kind of a creative mind I'm on board I applied for it I was I mean the interview went great they gave me a tour of the place I met all the people everyone liked it just I was like all right wow like this is cool then they took forever to email me back and then I finally did oh no finally I blew their email up like I was like um excuse me I'm just following up i just want to know i'm just following up just want to know time and time again they're like yeah we're still figuring out what's up here now and then finally so I'm like fiddling with my tea and looking at the camera finally they emailed me back and told me that basically I forget exactly how I worded it but that I fit into too many categories like he couldn't put me in one spot so I didn't get the internship and like rejection sucks obviously but I was just like that's your reasoning like I'm too overqualified like I'm too good at too many things keep just like thrifted cropped hoodie though anyway oh but ya know it was like such a like questioning of like myself and at first I really really like kind of thought of it as a fall and I kind of still do like I'm like jeez I wish I just sometimes I wish I just like one thing and like new like you know what I want to do video and that's what I'm going to stick with and forever it was like that with photography but then I got into like YouTube and I got into like writing with USA Today and I got into all these other little things that I was like well I wouldn't mind doing this I wouldn't mind doing this I wouldn't mind doing a lot of things like I'm kind of open and to trying everything like what I say create like I literally mean like even if like modeling happen like I still want to be part of like that that's still creating I'm still creating an image I'm still part of that you know I just literally love creating like that that's at least I have that part down re like at least I know what I like to do when I was a question if I'm talented at it though like every once in a while I'm human I'm like am I good at it like this whole time I've I just convince myself that I'm good at it and then really like I'm just kind of mediocre but then my friends then this is such a rambling I don't know where this started things that happened this week remind me that I am talented and that I do have a skill that I need to pursue in some sort of way this week my friends if you don't follow me on social media mm-hmm you should sips tea um Chris Brown instagrammed two photos that I took technically three but um yeah he Instagram some of my photography that I took of him at the show if you didn't know I took some really cool photos of him and a whole bunch of other artists from the one hell of a night tour I don't know if anyone familiar with half a sec Freddie well me goes Omarion kidding Teyana Taylor although i miss Teyana Taylor got there too late which sucks it was just funny because I wrote about this in my on my blog on my website if anyone's curious I wrote a little bit on my official photography website there's a blog section and I wrote a little bit about the night if you want to go read that but i'm pretty much about to talk about that right now um I just like knew that Chris Brown was gonna pick one of my pictures like I knew it I don't even know why like I just knew like because he's first of all if anyone follows chris brown on Instagram every time he does a show and I like studied this and that he always posts at least like four or five pictures from the show and I also noticed he didn't credit any of the photographers because he didn't credit me either which you don't know as an artist how painfully annoying that is to just not get any credit but anyway yeah I was like no like I have to have to get a dope picture I have to and he was it's honestly always the main act that's so hard to shoot like his lighting and everything was so chaotic like it was so crazy hid fog he had all these look effects too when he first came out and I don't know if anyone knows this but photographers typically for the four press pass photographers and concerts you only get to photograph the first three songs so it's not like I'm shooting the whole show I the first three songs he comes out to that's my shot to get as many shots as i get i don't think a lot of people know that but yeah that is how it goes it's pretty much the standard universal thing no matter where you are that's out is occasionally those exceptions but it's usually the first three songs anyway he did his first three songs personal very fast he didn't go the whole song so that was frustrating and yeah he's lighting was just so chaotic and yet fog and fire and all these things in front of him and I was like Chris you're making this real life for me but anyway I ended up getting some really really cool pictures and I spent all of my labor day literally the whole every day was raining here in Florida in bed just editing but yeah Instagram and it's just funny because my watermark this time around I horizontal of anyone familiar but little Wayne Instagram one of my pictures before and I put no watermark on it or anything like I just was like cuz I just wanted to be timely about it like I was like I just got to get these up because I just want him to see them like the night of the concert so that he can see them like I just was all about timeliness with that concert that was the Drake vs. Wayne tour and so this time around I was a hard i'm gonna put a watermark on every single picture that i uploaded to the internet but this time I was like can I remembered seeing this other artists posts a picture that had a watermark in it and the watermark was very very simple it was very very light and was just a photographer's initials I was like you know what I'm gonna try to keep it simple because i feel like if i put tivo'd photography like it's gonna get no love like it's just it takes away from the photo so i put TV in the corner and that's stands for chris brown as well as casey bud so I'm sure anyone who saw I just thought of his Chris Brown and it's just I remember doing it and thinking like you know this is Chris Brown's initials I was like now whatever like it'd be cool we'll be good like I can't put see bud because then he won't notice it I don't know it's a little like a little annoying and frustrating but at the same time I'm just so it kind of just really really really reinstalled and reassured me because the another airplane I'm trying to talk about my inspiration of really but know the amount of photos my god like yesterday or the day of that he tagged man I went through his tagged photos like the original picture I took of him was so far down like I'm like he gets tagged and like thousands of photos a day you know what I mean like he so many people want his attention all day long and for him to find my picture and post it is just mind-blowing to me like it's just like the how I felt was blowing all over gonna like literally somebody tagged my name in the Chris Brown photo and ended up for like 56 minutes I remember that so it was up for 56 minutes and I didn't even see it and one of my friends tag me in it and I'll like I screamed I was fresh out the shower I was in a towel that's green tint another demo so high because I knew it like I knew Chris Brown would see my pictures I don't even know how to tell you that I knew that but I just knew we would like also he's going to see this and then the following morning I was like wouldnt it be crazy if I could get him to like see another picture like what if he posted again sure enough sure enough that is exactly what happened like he did take that photo down though and I don't know why and I'm I know I'm little bummed about it but I'd still have the screenshot from when it was up so I any met I'm just like great cuz you just could you just give you credit though like I worked real hot like you're an artist like respect as little artists that are still trying to make it anyway stuff like that kind of really really rien spired me and kind of like you know my confidence in my art boosted obviously like tremendously you're really really awesome feeling especially when you always feel like the underdog I always feel like to own a dog when I do these shows concerts and stuff because it's all first of all I'm always the only only woman like photography in general the whole industry is just so male oriented and dominated it's kind of intimidating I'm not gonna lie because there's really not many female photographers that I mean Annie Leibowitz it's probably the first one everyone can think of but other than her you know there's not too many huge ones out there I mean they're they exist but it's just very male-dominated stuff like this makes me feel really good like I'm like I still got it okay so okay emails enough i think this past little experience with chris brown instagram a picture i know it seems kind of like assume i mean it's a pretty big deal for me but it's kind of made me take interest in possibly pursuing like concert photography and being at or photographer or like a house photographer for an arena so I've been doing the crazy research about that and contacting a billion and one people like my biggest advice for no matter what career path you're following I'm sorry if you don't care about photography at all and this was like a letdown for you but it's just I hope it inspires you that like to not give up because I kind of hit low points my hand of drug free and like what I want to do and honestly over the summer and everything I was just kind of like I don't know if I still love it the way I like I fell out of love with it probably because it started to feel like a job and not a passion because I was literally like I work so many jobs so my job um where I have to take pictures of what people tell me to and I don't really have like freedom in my creativity and that really really frustrates me because like I'm an artist like that's all I don't want to just have freedom on my creativity as simple as that like I i can do assignments and I don't mind doing them because you know I have to put bread on the table like I have to make money and understand but sometimes it just really feels like I can't like anybody could take it you know I mean I'm just like well I can't be creative with it I can't put my own spin on it like I just have to get pictures of something just to get pictures of it it just kind of like suck so you're just like okay like there's no like you're just going through the motions think that's my biggest struggle like I said I'm always in like a billion in one buckets and it's like a beauty in a weakness I mean it's like a gift in a curse because I'm obviously well-rounded but I'm not very strong in one thing and that's like kind of annoying what is with the planes though lord I know yeah concert photography is a thing that I'm thinking about like you know Beyonce has a photographer that goes on tour with her Justin Bieber as a photographer that goes on tour with him like you know they just have their / today or divert that does ariana grande has one that I predict these are at the top three that I know that are really really good and really really known but yeah you just shoot like behind the scenes stuff you shoot to show you literally get to travel the world with an artist even if I wasn't into the music I don't even care like I that's still awesome sure it's like pretty tiring and not as easy as it probably seems at all it's a lot of long nights I'm sure but I don't know i really love music i really really i really love music it just has always attracted me and i love photography and I just feel like why haven't I thought of this before like what was I doing this whole time that's kind of been a thing 20 though because I'm so torn like I love concert videography but recently this Instagram this photographer my name is Nicole Franzen I want to say she has really really inspired me to want to pursue another kind of photography yeah Franzen um I'll have her Instagram link below but she's just I love her work I love her if it's like she's honestly probably one of my favorite photographers by far because it's just so organic and natural and like I hate pose stuff I I don't really like in studio stuff like I don't mind learning it obviously and I'm never gonna like clothes like close it off like I'm always open to learning but her stuff is just so organic and raw and basically a hearse a photography is classified as lifestyle travel photography it just kind of includes like it's just like the setting that you're in the environment that you're in just kind of like there can be people in it but there doesn't need to be people in it could just be like the food that you're eating it's just kind of like makes you feel like you're there it's the lifestyle that that person yeah I don't know how to explain it if you go to the Instagram you'll see what I'm talking about it's just our work is amazing to me and they're so simple like other people that might not think that they're even I've worthy of talking about but I just feel like the lighting is so natural and so good I'm like looking at her Instagram sorry i'm just a huge fan of hers so i really wanted to get into that kind of geography too so when I was a grocery guy took a bunch of pictures like that that I had still yet to get up here's my thing here's my problem other than that I'm torn between lifestyle natural shots and concert shots which are two totally like which world am I in my other problem is being consistent on social media with my photography and social media is way of everything and I just you really need to start posting at least once or twice a day I my photography Instagram and keep my website up to date like my facebook like I need to stay active on those things I get so caught up in this like me YouTube and internet personality side that I kind of forgot about photography online and I just I just need to be consistent with that I suck at that because I have so much work that I've never posted online like so much like I'm constantly working and shooting the amount of like shooting and picture taking that I do that is not posted is crazy yeah it's just something that I need to work on I know my card is not about to fill clearly I'm rambling a lot tonight wow it's 1104 so enough about photography I guess I guess we'll talk about well photography is still a career and future related but a lot of people ask me about all the opportunities and internships and jobs that i have and how i go about getting them just to update you I have three on-campus jobs to being photography related one is just an office job then I have my internship I was actually recently promoted um there was probably about like 20 to 30 of us over the summer interning for USA Today college and about I want to say 10 of us got selected another airplane oh my god this is bags though um I think about like 10 of us got selected to continue on with us edited college and I was one of those 10 so that's really cool too um I was kind of promoted is moved to a digital web producer so I used to just you I don't know if anyone was familiar but I did these kind of like little weekly blog blog videos on college related topics I've it all dig down below if you want to go check out my work with them yeah now I've kind of moved on to their social media I don't know how else to say we're just helping them digitally build the audience digitally I mean I can still submit pieces to them also it's just kind of a mix of a bunch of things what else am i doing youtubing full time trying to keep this as full time as possible my life class Monday through Wednesday as well as work Monday through Wednesday I do freelance photography though so I mean weekends are usually photography related but I only have a schedule a strict schedule monday through wednesday a lot more open this semester to be more in to youtube and to do more on my own photography which is really cool it comes to like internships and careers and stuff like I don't know sometimes i'm really hard on myself but then I look back at my resume and I've had an internship every single year but I've been in college and I just can't stress that enough if you're just getting into college or you're in college now internships are just honestly the best thing because it's like a safety net like it's not the real job yet so like you can make mistakes it's kind of like expected like you're you're literally signing up to learn how to be a position so it's just such a bike safety net of app is it like thing to get involved in because you don't really necessarily have perfect or know your craft one hundred percent you can still there's room to grow the room to learn and an internship as for a job I mean obviously depending on what field to go into there's room to grow and everything but you're kind of expected to know what the hell you're doing so I would say just research is just the biggest thing like research I stress this in so many videos just research does everything people riding bikes planes are going by I'm making a video I honestly like probably every night before bed I mean I'm definitely on social media and definitely procrastinating and definitely all that but a lot of my time spent on the computer is also spent researching my craft and researching different fields and what opportunities are around me and just research just continue every day to look up whatever it is that you may be into and see if there's anything around that you could get involved in I mean sometimes you have to take you have to make your own opportunity sometimes I know personally for me with photography there was a moment that food photography was like my main thing I wanted to pursue I still kind of carries about food photography so I went up to local restaurants and just straight up was like hey do you guys need pictures taken for your menu or your website i'll be happy to help like little local restaurants need all the help they can get and it just helps you build your portfolio helps them it's a two-way street and so i did that for a lot of little local businesses and it's just stuff like that like you just have to kind of make your own opportunity sometimes if they're not there I don't like I said it depends what you're getting into but as for creative fields it's it's really hard because it's becoming a very oversaturated thing to be honest like everyone is some type of creator these days and it's hard to weed out you know the quality creators versus people that are just doing it for the hell of it or doing it because your mom said they're good um but when Chris Brown a little weight into private pictures you know I mean I gotta be somewhat go right well no that's for like over yourself I don't know what I'm doing I don't I every day every day someone asked me what I want to do when I graduate I graduate in May the senior senior year has started another planes going by this is outrageous like this is like not okay yeah see new years here and I'm figuring it out day by day that's the most i can say like i said this whole thing was chris brown SRAM in my picture and whatnot kind of rien spire me with my therapy and kind of turned me in another path or opened another door that might be of interest I don't know I don't know what tomorrow might bring so it's hard for me to be like I know exactly what I want to do in May when I graduate I i don't know i wish i could tell you that I knew and honestly if you're just starting college like and you don't know really don't sweat it because I'm a seeing you and I don't know and I feel like freshman year especially you feel like you have to have it all figured out like you really feel like I'm gonna have to know what I want to do where I want to live when I want to have kids I don't know just the pressure of the world it's so crazy sometimes you feel like you have to follow these footsteps that everyone follows what did you have to remember that we don't all wear the same shoe size so how are we all going to take the same footsteps okay it's it like we don't have to follow the book of society or you know what I mean like that's the thing I just made up oh no that's not a real thing but you mean like the steps of society that we're all supposed to take like college isn't for everybody like some things are just not for everybody like you don't have to do it like literally tomorrow I could pack my bags and go to Australia I would have no money but I could do that and restart my life like you can all wait you were in complete control sometimes we get so caught up in like what we're supposed to do and what we should do and you know what society says go to the high school go to college go to grad school do this have your family by 30 like you can do things at your own pace sometimes I think that is the biggest lesson that I have learned especially within my field of photography um I've gotten a lot better at saying no to people because when it comes to especially artists don't ever do your ship for free for a small I you do that show all the time I stick the evils pictures just because I you know I wanted to build my portfolio and obviously sometimes sometimes you have to bite the bullet depending on the opportunity of the shooter whatever the opportunity is like sometimes you just got to do it for free but sometimes you find yourself overworking yourself and you're putting in way more work than you need to be for not getting paid or not getting enough credit or you know not getting the praise that you deserve like sometimes you have to realize you're the and you need to get praised I'm sorry like that's not conceded that sounds however you want but like when you don't get credit on your picture that Christmas grams you feel a little bitter about it like you like you worked really hard like I did a lot of work to be where I'm at and so no I'm not going to take your pictures for free no I'm not going to do something and not get credit for it you know I mean like it's it's like it obviously it happens obviously some things are out of my control but when it comes to people asking for pictures or you know job opportunities or job assignments like i like i said i freelance for two jobs on my campus and i'll be honest like i've said no more and more recently and i can tell it's made things a little uneasy um but sometimes you have to like respect yourself and respect your own art and realize like the Worth and value on how much work you put into your craft even if it's not all right even if you do something totally different to do science or whatever you may do like then you put a lot of work and time into something like value it and realize how hard you worked on it and be proud of it like sometimes I think we forget to be proud of ourselves and we think that like what I've it all figured out like I figure it out I can't be proud of myself yet like look how far you've gone like look at all the you've been through not even just saying here is saying school I mean obviously school like literally 21 years of my life basically has been spent inside of a building listening to someone talk and tell me their perspectives on things basically that's a lot of to get through like I'm pretty proud of myself we're handling that the way that I have sometimes step back and be like wow I'm awesome sorry I just had to get that out yeah I don't know where this is going where that thought when I just totally lost my train of thought but no matter what you're pursuing on what you're doing always remember your Worth and always remember all the hard-working you know you're not going to get there tomorrow it's not gonna happen overnight and that if you give up now like that would just look at all the hard work you've done up to this point like if you were to stop now you'd be stupid you'll be stupid to stop now so just keep going just keep going I mean sometimes like I said like I've gotten in funks and with photography I was like I don't know if I like this anymore because it honestly just became job but once I started to say no hey I can't really shoot that on Saturday I know I can't do that for free I was like okay this feels better like it's it's not a job like I can be passionate about my work again I think you just really have to find the value and what you do and if you're passionate about something don't make it a job I mean some people can handle it me personally like I love photography and if it would have become my job then oh my god Mike you mean I would be it would be great but a part of me almost doesn't want it to become my dream job because I just don't want to lose the passion in it if I have to shoot what somebody else is telling me to shoot like weekly or every day like that just would kill it for me I feel like so I'm not still learning experience still figuring myself out so figuring out what I want to do who knows what i'll be doing this time next year that's always the scariest craziest thought ever is to think about this time next year living it day by day and taking it a day at a time and that's all you can do so that's all you should do trying to get experience and you're trying to gain experience and go after opportunities make your own opportunities find internships do what you have to do to get involved honestly it's who you know not what you know I think we can all agree if you know somebody it's a lot easier to get involved into whatever you're getting into so just talk to people talking to people and networking is one of the biggest things you could possibly do and that is probably like the reason for half of the opportunities that I've gotten just because i went up to somebody so just talk to people don't be scared like obviously I was like oh my god this i'm scared i'm scared okay it's literally is gonna be two minutes of your life of your whole life two minutes of talking somebody and then it'll be over and then you'll go out the next day and life will be fine and you'll drink tea like this and you'll be okay i don't know what i'm saying i'm tired but life will be okay what I mean like don't trip don't you just talk to people i know people have social anxiety and you don't like talking to strangers but like I promise you what's the worst that could happen they could say no they could say get out my face they could say I won't talk to you okay and then I moments over and then you never have to do that ever again you know what I mean it's like we trip ourselves out we psych herself that it's all in your head maybe I want to shut up because there's a very long night of rambling please comment down below what you want next week scramble to be about I'm trying to make this as weekly as possible my voice is going I look hit it's time for bed so yeah thank you so much for watching and I'll see you next time bye but in general I felt like this one all situations where again people thought I was white cuz she I remember she was like I mean I'm not offending anybody in this room and at first I didn't say